when you're in too deep..

..and you can't claw your way out..

here's what you do. get your attitude right back. i'm assuming you got yer own attitude that's unique to you. be it the old stubborn self or the arrogant prick that you were, be that.

stick with being yourself as hard as you need to wrap your own backbone to a fence - for those moments that bring you down will be plenty.

don't worry about falling back to the mould that you were - don't worry, for you can hardly change who you are inside.

package it, with ribbons and bows, but ultimately you are still who you are. it's merely how you present yourself that's the crux in the future.

but that's the future. maybe then you'd learn to shut up, smile and nod while walking away all the while thinking in your own head 'geez what a moron' - or not. either way, that's one of the ways to get over it.

who doesn't like himself when he's in his own element, comfortable?

might be a rotten hole but it's familiar. once you're out of the blue funk - change those fucked-up bad points of yours and get them the fuck out of your system.

as much as you can, of course.

one can only change so much in this much time. as long as you try, no one should fault you for being too damn slow.

as long as you tried.



me? i'd always been a rough-talker. insecure, aye, but i know my faults. sometimes they rear their ugly heads, them faults - i'm just stating two of my faults here, i got loads more - but the thing is that, as long as you're willing to try to change, what more can others ask of you?

self-recognition, self-acceptance and then, acceptance of others.

take your time, it's the only thing you have. take your chances, that's how you change and test yourself.

all in all, realise. and be fuckin' smart enough to want to change.