equilibrium

i finally see equilibrium.

i love simon, i still do. whether or not he loves me, that's fine. i suppose i'm still hurting, but i'm finding my peace. heh. it's been what, almost three weeks now? or has it been four? felt like eons.

guess it's not that bad a record, to find equilibrium again in a few weeks' time for something rather major.

if he comes back, great; we've found each others' warts and good points, we'll be stronger. i don't doubt we can last, then.


but if he doesn't, alright. a pity, for i see how it similar it is with his ex and him. if she had agreed to return to him i bet they'd be married by now. i still haven't exactly 'found someone' yet, for i hadn't met him at all as of yet; and a part of me is hoping, that he'd see and say, let's give it another shot.

maybe, maybe.


mm. he seems a little awkward about me today. i wonder why. made me wonder what'd i do.