i wish

i wish i'd never known. i wish i never knew.

i wish i had no heart, i wish i never knew how to feel. i wish i never knew happiness, for then i wouldn't know pain. i'd rather not feel.

'i'd rather not feel,' someone said to me.



silly, isn't it. to wish so.

people say it's good to fly and fall - better than having walked and never soared. maybe i'm scared to ever take wing again.

for i'd found a nest. it's empty now, i'm trying to leave. but i'd left my heart in it.

i wonder, how many hearts do i have?



what if someone else took my nest? ..but it's an empty nest. and my heart's always with me.

it is an empty nest. but why am i still here?

dare i still wait for his return?