eureka!

hey! i just had a revelation!

i don't have quarrels with anybody.


in the sense that i'm not going to mention anyone even if a 'one free kill from your neighbourhood assassin' voucher were to be found in my mailbox one day.

no, not even the one i called a bitch. who's to say what's right and what's wrong? yeah alright so trying lecture me was unpleasant; i hardly even know her. she did what she felt was appropriate at the moment, never mind that it is or it isn't. as i said, only time can tell whether something's right or wrong.

everybody does what's 'right' or takes what looks to be the best course of action at that point in time. yeah, even those chaotic evil ones - maybe they were 'following orders' and that's their goal and what's 'right' to them.

maybe they felt they're doing something right by doing war, by expanding their area of rule. maybe killing that paladin (when you're a demon) id right, because he's just so... 'right'. heck this one killed your comrades! heck he is probably going to kill you on sight if you don't kill him first!

..i guess the only difference there between paladins and demons (in this pseudo-d&d analogy anyway) is that demons tend to have enemies amongst the evil ones as well, and their loyalties tend to lie in their clans instead of 'for all evil' or 'for all good'.

in more human terms, though, these are somewhat the same.


the mafia? their loyalties lie in their own clans. there are, of course, examples of betrayals, in which loyalties lie with more often than not, the betrayors themselves.

where do we find those real life paladins? tough.


i guess one becomes a paladin when your purpose is for a plan that benefits more than just yourself. maybe that 'for the greater benefit' plan is not really what the opposition's idea of 'for the greater good'. heck, just ask the iraqis.

bush tried to 'free' them. some don't want their leader to go. some are relieved to know that they are finally free. some feel that bush should stick his nose where it's welcome.

so what's good, what's right, what's wrong, and what's bad?


i suppose she did and said whatever she believed in. so it didn't benefit me.

so she is still alive and kicking. what does it bother me? so he's over it. what about it?


let's be friends, shall we? it's so tiring being angry and upset and sad and suchlike. manic or depressed, it doesn't quite matter.

think about it. mania and depression come from external triggers. when someone's like that they tend to be very sensitive to external influences.

but as i found out, they don't surface when things 'don't matter'. see?

the more important something seems to them the more sensitive these troubled people are to them.


the key is to not get too close. yea, sweet simony, it's like watching the stars from afar.

let's watch the stars from afar, with a cuppa in our hands one of these days. and babes, let's do the same with a glassa wine. i'll get the wine, we can forgo the glasses. let's do plastic cups instead. one of these days, eh? say some friday or something, when your exams are over. jas, i'll wait for your work to be done. i promise to save as much wine as i can i bring myself not to drink. -grin-

while you're golfing simony, look up at the stars (if you can see them, damn bright lights) - i'll be raising a toast to you, from another side of singapore.