woke up hating

uh huh.

i woke up hating today; and a headache that would reduce me to a twitching lifeform in jeans.

yeah. so i sleep in jeans.


why? i felt like it. :)

though mostly i sleep in a more natural state than that, in case you're thinking i'm a nut for wanting that in singapore.

so me mum's headed back to indonesia, hope she brings back more goodies like otak and bak kueh, kaya and other local yummies! heh. i used to give all of that to someone and his family to enjoy.

hmmm i wonder if the babes would like some of those otak. :)


she came by to say hi before she went to the pier, and we hung out for a bit. wasn't much company. me i mean.

i was grouchy and she was trying to get me to eat more, saw the dark circles under my eyes and started to offer advice on how to sleep better...

no, i don't suppose i was nice. being grumpily silent is not nice. i was sorry when she left to get to the pier, though.. :( i wish i hadn't done that. what would it take to smile? make small talk?


mm. like a certain su i know, it's the kind of time when i wonder how things will be for me in the future. will i love my career? will i find someone like i found someone? will it start from kisses, as well?

fulfillment? almost a foul word in my mouth. what irony, it's such a beautiful word.


but then, maybe i'll be happier married to me job. :) it's got its tantrums as well, the job. sometimes shit happens and it's absolutely not your fault, sometimes shit happens because it is your fault. the same with relationships. only we tend to take relationships for granted.

su: yeah you'll find somebody. i swear, you will. i will, too. jenn took some time in getting there, jas might take some time... hahaha!

whatever it is, i swear you'll find someone you can and will love, who will love you back the way you want him to.

you won't have issues job-wise lah haha! besides, pretty girl like you, why'd you be left alone for long? it's your heart you can't give away. -grin-


i know i can trust mine, because it's NABEH dead! hawhawhaw

but seriously. it'll revive itself somehow. bother.

we're only what, 20-plus-a-little? nowhere near saggy. plus, looking at our body types we'll be knockouts come thirty. long shelf-life man, so don't you worry. we're in no hurry to snag a man before our breasts touch our knees. heh. the advantages of being scrawny. we're in no hurry.. :)

i know, arians are impatient - i understand because quite a good percentage of my make up is arian, too.

but it doesn't help, does it? is it going to come just because we're impatient? slowly lah, angst is - necessary, i suppose.

but if you can't take it, give me a call, let's hit the streets. let's just hang out, watch the sky for a while. see how people run when it does rain. :)


take care, babe, we love you.