now that the panic's over...

alright.

so i'm done with the panic. ..alright so it's still here, with the mild fluttering still about. -ugh- hate panics. i thought i was done with that!


anyways. a friend of mine's going away soon. a certain someone might know his name: sam. he's going away and finally headed Elsewhere. not that i don't mind him - i just don't like him. yeah, cute-ish, tall, bloody nice to me - but what use's that to me when all he gives me are crooked memories? eeyer.

so he's leaving sometime in may, early may. but while i dislike him i do not hate him, so here's a prayer for you sammy-boy.


may you find peace and solace wherever you may go. may you find happiness and friends wherever you tread. may the Lord guide your path, may you find material success.

Amen.


now that it's done, out of sight, out of mind. -block-

heck. i guess when i don't care i still care. why else do i block someone out if that fella doesn't quite matter? hum. time to sort myself out.


oh btw, someone's ex spoke to me just what, today? yah lah that someone's ex lah. don't know why she's talking to me, asking me how's life.

life's tough, you know? but what do i say to someone i don't quite trust other than 'good, good', because that's someone i hadn't 'gone through thick and thin' with? that honour comes with time baby, and you're not getting it at this rate we're going. besides, i'm not screwing you. things won't be accelerating anytime soon. haha

but i sure would if i were a guy. i'd like a woman with tits. and a nice smile. maybe. -grin-


thanks for asking though, it was nice of you.


then again, it's hardly 'nice' when all we can manage is superficial 'how are yous' and such.

but on the other hand.. she DID take the trouble. ah. why bother my head with it? she said hi, asked how i was. that's a nice thing to do. don't have your vision be coloured by the past sweetie-pie, - she did what she thought was right, as did everybody.

who the hells cared what's right anyway? it's past. so.. thanks, i appreciate your asking. pardon me about the msn though, it's terribly screwy.


heh. as if you're reading this anyway...

but as i said, she's happy, her beau's happy, hope he's happy - i could do better but where else would i rather be? though i still get plagued by memories otherwise sweet..

but is it, really?






naaaaaaah