is that a grimace or a smile?

yes, it's the wee hours of the morning again, i suspect that i'm burning myself out as well..

that aside, have you ever seen people whose smiles are really grimaces and the corners of their lips actually turn downwards in apparent mirth? it's tiring watching them smile sometimes, for they seem to put so much effort into smiling.

mm.


come to think of it, there are a couple of people i know who will turn their mouths into a frown when relating encounters and experiences and that as a result makes them look really... nitpicky? almost like they were judging that incident and thinking it a bad thing even when their words carry none of those negative overtones.

maybe i notice too much. it might be better if i were oblivious to these things, i suppose.. for when the world is too clear sometimes, it is too easy to see imperfections.

that's why i'm happy that i'm just that little myopic. just enough to blur out the proverbial dusts in the real world, i suppose. now let's shift that principle to suit my views on people..


mm. i suppose.. i suppose when i said i wasn't prejudging i was, in a sense. the saving grace is that i tend to give people the benefit of the doubt.

i realise that i tend to jump to conclusions a little more quickly and a little more bitterly these days. i wasn't quite like that before.. for i was bloody accurate on those counts. maybe i'm still as accurate, but who knows?

maybe people just need that little bit more benefit of the doubt. i know, for i hadn't been given the benefit of the doubt. it ain't funny being misunderstood. true that it's how we present ourselves sometimes and we've no one but ourselves to hold accountable but well, why do i deny them that benefit of the doubt?

isn't the world somehow better with a little more tolerance, that proverbial blurness?