sunday

sunday. wow, it's fast. i held on to saturday, i did! and when i woke sunday was halfway gone.

i'd called a friend when i woke, we had a chat. it was a nice thing i had done, to call. though... i probably shouldn't have.


wow, i had been having the sense that i lack direction again. i mean, what i do is very nice and all, but it hardly makes me think. i like the fact that i am up to date with everything going on around the world but... i have to say that unless i'm trading, it's probably not a really good place to be. hm. i wonder if ..i wonder if a certain friend's mother -

haha


it's a friend's mom, for crying out loud. why'd i be bothered about someone else's mom? i feel so tired suddenly. it's strange that i should be contemplating how to fall on a chopstick and have it pierce my heart. lol heart kebab!

i wonder what the surgeons would say.


surgeon one: "sheesh, young people these days! and chopsticks! ever heard of knives? tsk."

surgeon two: "yeah, stupid kid. kids these days think that hearts are easy to mend. ever tried to fix a skewered plastic bottle?! with chambers built in??"

anaesthetist: "you guys think you have it tough, but we who play support roles have to make sure the person's still sustained. chemicals, bah!" -curses-

(an argument ensues, ending with the anaesthetist thumping his mask on the floor)


hm. i wonder if that would then convince me that i do indeed have my heart with me, here, in my chest. it's been nowhere else but here. i can feel it beat, can't i?

i wonder if i'm spiraling out of control like britney spiralled out of control. i'm still pretty together, aren't i? the gloom i'd chucked into the rubbish bin, i'm going out and getting more air, i'm still working...

haha phone call. it will be good to focus on someone else for a while. i've got love to give, here. let me give it to someone who's willing to receive. : )


i think it's time for me to move out, too. move on out, move along. somewhere else, hey. :) babes, if you hear of places out for rent at a reasonable price, do let me know. it's time i moved on out.