sometimes

sometimes it is just harder to understand what it is that makes the whole world move. i start out as a whelp two years ago, was - am - rather dumb, ignorant. and i'm thinking, maybe i've learnt something, eh? it's been some time since i last started working.

unfortunately it ain't the case.

i hang out with the people i used to hang out with, and bam! i realise i'm still the young whelp that i was. maybe because they're still many years older than i am and i am their "young friend".

so often i feel like a fish out of water because i don't quite know what to say. financial jargon, societal ineptitude - not that i am that, but because i do not know enough. it sounds like that to my ears and if i sound like that by gods they must think i am superbly ignorant!

others aren't as forgiving as my own good self am. bear that in mind.