the bus drivers

on this occasion, i remembered the evening when i made up my mind to write about them bus drivers. it was on the night when i was still working with my previous employer... it was very late at night, and he was sending me home, along with his wife in the same car.

i wondered, amidst tears (had a humongous hiccup at work and since the boss and his lady can never be at fault, i'm the one to get screwed over. but that's over now, and i've been happier since i left that place), how the bus drivers felt on a night like this, are they exhausted, like i am exhausted? are the emotionally vacant like i was then, because they probably don't have a life outside of their driving routines?

the buses seem to hurtle at great speeds for a vehicle of that size; and i wondered, are they hurtling because they need to get their passengers back to their homes so they can get ready for bed, or are they hurtling for their own sakes, because they needed something to make them feel alive, because they wanted to feel the euphoria of driving in the night, of being a 'captain of the ship', because they had to? and what do they do, after this? who takes them home, then?

i know, that after i had cried i could've gone. sleep it off, wake up and get to work again, leave it all behind, a dream away.

what about these people, these drivers? do they get reprieve at all? what is their social life like, outside of their bus routines? do they have a social life outside of their bus routines? who do they work for? what do they do, exactly, other than open doors for us?

these are the people we see every day, but do not see, do you get what i mean?


and what about us, the execs. do they see us? and do other people see us, when we're walking to work, to lunch, from lunch, back home? or are we merely part of the population landscape? who notices us anymore? we're just part of the background, no? we're increasingly thinking that way and behaving that way.


is that why quite a few of us are "oblivious", so to speak, and "complacent"? because the world consists only of themselves. and when shit happens "they'll bring this up to the authorities, see if they don't!"

have we become a shallow, petty bunch?


ya think?