ahem, ahem!

just in case you guys think that i'm desperate to get married - i'm not.

it's like wanting a car. like you've always wanted that cute volkswagon, you can't wait to finally being able to afford it, to ride in it, to finally have it - but you don't need it. it won't kill you to not have it, but you want it.

and it's the same. i've always wanted to get married; but it's not something i want to hop into straight after i get to know a guy, probably not even for a few years.


BUT. it is important to understand that any man who does not want me enough to want to marry me at a moment's notice is not worth my affections. sad to say, something broke in me last night, i have a funny feeling it may stay broken for a looong time.


anyhoos. i want to be desired. being desired and wanting to get married HERE AND NOW are completely two different things. just in case you didn't get it: i want to be desired, but i do not necessarily want to get married, like, now.

capisce?