words to listen to

words to listen to, to fall asleep with, but not words to believe in.

someone told me, just recently, that he'll 'make me a tai-tai'. i melted inside. how do i not smile at that statement, made so simply, meant as simply?

..but this sweetness came from this innocent boy, who, in his seeming naivete, hurt me when i thought i could trust him. and trust him i did - bad mistake.

i.. don't blame him. maybe he was just learning. about people, about life, you know? but why has it got to be me? is it so hard to find a person who you can rely on, trust without having to fear being betrayed?


and another said, 'i'll never forget you'.

...so you didn't. true that i left you. but so what? i'm sorry.

not sorry for you; sorry for us. all three of us and everyone else in between. i'm not ready. i'm... very happy to hear these words from you, i do. but i'm just not sure if i can trust these words. i'm sorry to have to say that.

if i could cry i will, but i suppose i've hardened into a husk, like a coconut, where the waters are locked inside. and even that, will later dry.

but ah, enough about me. what about you?

what do you see it this, eh?


what made you say these? inebriation? late nights that lower the guard?

love me. but love me discreetly.