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isn't it odd, when you seem to have everything that you asked for, but somehow isn't happy? what, then, is the issue? is it the world, or is it just you?

personally i'm feeling odd. my question is: what else is there, other than being physically together? i'm not talking about just sex here, but more about everyday interactions.

are we seeing too much of each other? are we talking enough? do we "do" stuff together, like take walks down at botanical gardens, catch plays, go to the beach, visit the library, suchlike enough? are we attracted to each other, do we like each other and "love", to a certain degree, each other but cannot live with each other?

or is it the other way round? can we function as a couple outside of the house? can we communicate, how do we measure up to each other, what are our pluses and minuses, how else do we complement each other?

i am the best; he is a pretty good match.


so then, what prompted this train of thought, this feeling of unease?

..someone told me "when i first felt happiness, i thought it was gas."



is this "my", so to speak, gas? hmm. something more to think about, eh? probably best thought-about alone.