girls

i went out with the girls today.

it was awkward at the beginning for some reason... it's almost as if i rubbed everybody the wrong way and as a result i was, quite a large part of the time, unsure if i would make matters worse by saying anything.

and no, i'm not normally bothered by other peoples' views and/or reactions to me, but these are the people who i am supposed to love, for better or for worse.

it's hurtful to be snapped at repeatedly, i hope i'm just being sensitive and "cannot take joke one" - i had considered leaving earlier: if i only serve to upset people, then it's best that i'm not there. that way both sides don't get aggravated and this saturday will be more enjoyable.

very thankfully though, it ended in a nicer, more familiar manner and i'm glad we feel like friends again. i just hope this isn't what i should be looking out for each time we go out though - it'd be a shame if it were.


come to think of it though ...even if it were, i'll probably still choose to love them. shut up and love them, pei, because that's what you know you'll do when it comes to them.