dreams

i've had dreams fo being someone prominent before. y'know, like a singer, actor, smart and witty and gorgeous to boot - talented, yes: talented. the kind of talent and/or beauty that will turn heads anywhere and the ability to raise awareness for some god-forsaken and human-forgotten country just by doing a walk there.

i'm still having them dreams now by the way, but that doesn't mean that it's any easier to acheive. on the contrary, now that i'm looking at it, it looks like it's one big mountain to climb.

everyone hopes for someone who happened to think that they're heaven's gift to theatre/music/whatnot but truth be told, just how many temperamental gay directors do they expect to think that they're JUST what they need in their newest movie? ...okay maybe i was being judgemental about prominent/influential people being gay.

but truly, do you really expect proud, established, confident people with track records to GROVEL for your esteemed presence? (oh please)


thus. having no such illusions about my humble self, i can only strive to be the best that i can be, be it simply being a person pleasant enough to be around or being a conscientious worker in the office or giving it your best shot when it comes to the lessons you sign up for and not treat it like a joke. have fun while at it, but don't treat it like a joke.

there's a distinct difference there.


ergo. i had dreams. i still have dreams. and the purpose of the dream is so i can make others' lives easier and better. let me have my dream, so i may do the proverbial walk in human-forgotten countries.

because where i tread, i want to leave it better than it originally was.