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Jacys says:
its time to take what i want
Jacys says:
why must i give all the time?
Jacys says:
tired of giving
bound, not gagged. says:
..no one asked that you give all the time
bound, not gagged. says:
ifyou wanted to give, go ahead and give
bound, not gagged. says:
but understand that it is you who wanted to give
bound, not gagged. says:
and receiving on your end is completely at the mercy of the other party
bound, not gagged. says:
expecting to be loved and to receive is just asking for it



...i was once like that.

"no more!" i said.


and "no more!" i still say. i heard those words told me me against my unwilling ears again, from a certain ex of an ex.

"it's wrong," she said.


wrong? wrong!

what's right and what's wrong? who died and made you judge of my life? heck you don't even have a halo. you can't walk on water but i bet you'll float. and that's just because of the fats around your thighs. you'll either float leg-up or chest up, not that i envy you.

i don't fancy sagginess, neither do i like having my boobs being seen first when i round a corner. gosh - those, my dear friends, are called "titties". no longer "boobies".

anyways.


it's not 'wrong'. foolish, maybe, but not wrong. to say that it is wrong smacks too strongly of judgement - especially when you are not meant to be doing so. no, not even 'your personal opinion'.


..and so i learnt the hard way. give, give all i want but to protect myself i have to not expect anything in return.

i believe that's what she's trying to say. i'm still angry at you, i still blam eyou for this, you know that. i'm sure you can tell.

you are the cause you probably will never cease to be the cause. but it doesn't matter to you and shouldn't. and so what?